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Ok, I got my password back 2 months ago and I’m really glad I am back because I miss this kind of thing. And of course, the first thing I do is catch up on whatever I was talking about back in the day.
Things at work have kind of been stagnating with like how much I’m being paid and I want to earn more income. I’ve also low-key wanted to become a fitness instructor. Like if I hadn’t gone corporate, making fitness a living would be so fun. –> If I hadn’t gone corporate, I’d have more time to write my novels.
I think a lot about this. Where the job that I have right now is really limiting me into the things I (me!) want to be doing with my life. I enjoy the job a lot. The activity of it is a lot of fun and I find it fulfilling. But I’d rather write and work out. Not be corporate.
Wow. I literally just made that my title. Well, to be honest, I don’t know if I could truly call myself fat because I never even got up past the average size for an American woman. And even then, that was an average size. I think at most I was a size 14 but mainly was a size 12. Before I felt fat (a key point I’m going to make in a minute), I was only a size 10 so not that crazy of a difference.
I don’t know what the big difference between a 10 and a 12 is but it’s a big one. It’s so big that people comment that you’ve lost weight or that you’re skinny now. I watched part of a video where a comedian was talking about her mom telling her she was thin-fat. And I low-key get that. Continue reading
I don’t claim to be an expert on what I eat. I kind of just follow the basics: 3 servings of veggies, 2 servings of fruit, smaller portions of carbs, and I try to get 4 proteins in a day.
Try is a keyword for me. To be honest, I notice the difference when I eat clean. And it’s really hard to live and work amongst people who don’t try to do the same. When I cook eggs, my dad absolutely hates the smell of it and dramatically plugs his nose. The first week I started eating unprocessed foods, it really hurt my feelings. It made me feel like he wasn’t supporting my effort in being healthy.
But I kept at it. And now he’s adjusted.
Wow, I’m not sure if I can really call myself that. But it’s a title I now have. Nearly seven months ago, I let y’all know I was starting a fitness challenge with my friends where I ended up winning a nice sum of $16.31. Yeah, it was really great. And that’s a half-joke because wow, my health was on point throughout September. I won’t lie, I eased up in October going from a 97% healthy diet to a 85%. I refuse to cry about eating a cookie. I don’t find that healthy either. Of course, it depends on what you’re trying to do. If you want to be in a bikini competition, your diet has to be specialised. If you fall into the population that cares about losing weight and thinks ,”while it’d be nice to scuplt and tone, the bottom-line is that number on the scale”, that’s okay too. And yes, you can argue “don’t let weight be a summary statistic of your health. It’s just a number”. That’s right too. I agree with that sentiment a lot. On one hand, it’s hard to accept yourself like that, but on the other, my original sentence was to generalise a large segment of the population without falling into the trap of a logical fallacy.
So, this has been my life for almost a year now. It’s honestly a dream job and I hadn’t considered it one until a former professor told me, “A lot of people would be very happy to have the job you do” and he’s right.
“But you’re not satisfied with just a job. You have to write this book,” he added. He’s right.